feeling feelings of doubt and uncertainty in my relationship of 4 years (in December) and it’s terrifying me :(

I’ve not been on holiday in 4 years and mum has been saying she’ll take me away for 3 of those years, hasn’t, has been away multiple times with my dad though and has just booked her and my dad a last minute holiday for this friday without telling me because she knows that I’d be like wtf and she knows that it’s shady. I’m so aware this is like the quintessential of first world problems but like, DUDE, COME ON

see when you just really truly stop giving a fuck, god DAMN it is so freeing